Media personality Nana Owiti has shared an emotional post on her Instagram on how she’s still learning to live with the loss of her mother.
Owiti shared that losing her mother was one of her biggest fears as she was still young. Owiti shared a throwback photo of her mum and captioned;
”As a child, one of my biggest fears was losing my mother. This fear intensified when I began living with her. I would creep into her room in the middle of the night slowly and quietly open her bedroom door and hold my breath as I watched to see if she was still breathing. I would only breathe a sigh of relief when I saw her ribcage moving up and down then gently close the door. On a day like this in 2007, I glared right into the blaring reality. My worst fear came to be. She was just 37yrs! I was a teenager. I wasn’t prepared. My life took a drastic turn and I spiraled downward for a while. When I arrived at the hospital where my mom was admitted, she had grown too tired and lazy to breathe anymore. CPR couldn’t bring her back (Yes! I tried to revive her myself🥹). Dreams shattered. Aspirations crushed. Expectations unmet. Plans thwarted. Goals ruined. Seventeen years later, I’m still unsure how I’ve managed to get here but God has been merciful and gracious.”
She further narrated how dearly she misses her mum as she continues to grief the loss. She is still learning to live with the pain of the loss.
”I miss her and need her guidance more as I grow older but grief is like the ocean—sometimes calm ☺️ and sometimes overwhelming😩. All we can do is learn to swim 🏊♀️. So here’s to keeping my head above water 💪🏾. Here’s to wishing you a peaceful rest mama. I will be playing Candle in the wind a lot more today to playing Bosco Mulwa, here’s to playing Michael Bolton the most because those memories mean everything to me. I will cry a little more today..grief is the price we pay for love,right? 🙂. I will look at your pictures more and notice details I didn’t the last time.. I miss you Mwĩĩtũ wa Nzomo wa Kitonde wa Loka wa Musau wa Mwaki wa Makaa wa Ng’ulũ 🕊️❤️